Normally I would start an entry with a calm and possibly witty introductory statement. FUCK THAT!!! Last night a friend pissed me off by making the mistake of placing me in a category of other people negatively. FYI: That's one of the last things you should ever do to me. This friend was going through some issues and while I'm being very concerned about this person I make efforts to call to see how their doing, send messages of care and concern. Just overall letting them know that I'm here to talk or listen and I love them. Here's the issue. I'm not getting anything in return. No calls, no messages, no carrier pigeon, note in a bottle, smoke signal, nothing. Now, because of the person that I am, I begin to worry and it went on so long that I worried hard. Then the person called me but I didn't catch the call in time. So I call back. Only to get hung up on. The the cycle of phone calls repeats itself...twice. So of course I'm upset, confused and even more worried. And when I finally get in touch with my friend, they have the nerve to be upset because they said I should have known them well enough to know that they needed to be away from everything and this is how they operate. When I asked why they didn't just say so......(drumroll).......they say that everyone else catches feelings and then there's an argument on why they need to be alone.
I must explain this about me before I go further. I'm not everyone. I'm me. Been me for years and I'm excellent at this shit! I don't give a fuck about what some other lame bitches and so called friends do as a norm. Fuck 'em all as far as I'm concerned. Place me alongside of people that's about something. If you can't do that, well, you might as well get the fuck out of dodge now. Its not even an issue of me doing what anyone else does. Its that whatever happened in the past of this person has fucked them up so bad that sitting in the fuck up has become comfortable. Fuck that!!! That's a shitty existence to walk with. I refuse to be complacent with bullshit and fuckery just because I'm used to it. And the fact that this friend that I love dearly is walking this line is letting me know that they may need to be cut loose. I'm a fucking go getter. Fuck your self impossed stop lights. And I'm out!!! (Drops the mic)
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